INVISIBLE                               by Sonia Amorim


They treat me like I'm not here
like they dont care
but I'm here, I'm not invisible
I'm clearable.
Can't they see me?
or am I just a ghost?
They should see me clearly
because I'm standing up in the way like a post.
But they dont and it's painful
I wish they would talk to me
and see that im noticeable.
But it's not like that, it will never be
why do they hate and neglect me?
I guess maybe I am the one to blame,
everything happens because of me
This pain and guilt has brought me to my shame.
The darkness of the cold shoulder
seeps into me oh so fast
I can't stop it from entering me
I have to cry, I can't relax.
I'm sick of everything happening because of me
if they hate me so much,
why don't they come up with the courage to
tell me to leave?
I know I'm another bump in the road,
and  I can't help that I'm sorry,
but all this shit has been happening
just because of me.
It's ok to blame me,
I am not here,
blaming me would  be like blaming someone in
thin air.
They think I don't know,
or that I don't care
but all this hate has made me believe
they don't want me here.
And I'm so confused, i thought they wanted
me to live here
but I was wrong,ever since I moved in,
my cousins and me don't really get along.
All I hear is maybe a "hello" here and again
but that is not enough,
I don't want to seem selfish but,
just hearing a "hello" is really tough.
I love my cousins,
I'm just to shy to strike a conversation
but they should be talking to me
to get some motivation.
But they don't do that
and that is what hurts me the most
When they ignore me
I feel like an invisible ghost.
It's so painful coming to a house everyday
and everyone walkis by you and it's so quiet
I can't seem to get myself to break away the
silence.
I know they hate me and they treat me like I'm not there
but listen up everyone
'cause damn right,
SONIA IS FUKING HERE!